My boyfriend and I just graduated from college and celebrated our 1 year anniversary. Sounds great, right? Well, yes and no. Celebrating our anniversary is awesome but graduating... Besides all of the other downsides to graduating this year, there's also the fact that graduating means that we don't get to see each other every day. We're about an hour/ hour and a half from each other right now which isn't bad but it isn't great either. At school we would sleep with each other at least 5 nights a week and now, what? maybe once a month? How often will we really get to see each other? I'm completely bummed. I guess you could say I'm afraid that we'll grow apart or something but I really don't think that's exactly it. I don't know...I'm going to miss him and that just sucks. We don't get to spend lazy Saturday/Sunday afternoons doing nothing but watching tv, napping, and fooling around. It sucks that we're not going to get to spend time together. We had so much freedom at school, we could do whatever we wanted, see each other whenever we wanted, we could decide to see each other at a drop of a hat and be together in 10 mins... I want to be with him and I guess it feels like we're not actually together. It's bad enough that I don't get to see my other best friends from school but to not see him is even harder. Honestly, if I could only see one person a day, I'd choose to see him (but maybe that's just me because I'm antisocial...). Not knowing when I'm going to see him next is probably going to be one of the most difficult parts along with not having that physical contact, not falling alseep and waking up in his arms, not even holding hands...I crave that connection with him... I'm not so much afraid that we're not going to be able to stay together but more afraid of what missing him this much is going to do to me...that sounds weird but I don't know how else to explain it.
1. he can always make me laugh 2. he makes fun of me (in a he doesn't let me get away with being completely ridiculous way) 3. he's ridiculous 4. he likes to cuddle 5. he can be all lovey dovey with me 6. we can be weird together 7. he lets me rant at him 8. he tries to make my headaches in a completely ridiculous and silly way and it only kinda works because it makes me laugh and gets my mind off of it 9. he cares about my friends---my best friend and her long-term boyfriend (who my bf is friends with) just broke up and he keeps asking me if she's okay and how she's doing 10. he freaks out when he hears about cheaters 11. he wipes my nose when i'm crying (haha now, thats love) 12. he tells me i'm beautiful (even when i'm crying which is a complete lie haha) 13. he insisted on taking care of me when i was throwing up 14. he loves babies 15. he puts up with the ridiculous things that i do and say
this is going to be a very long weekend for me...i get to see my boyfriend on monday for the first time in 4 weeks!!! i want it to be now and then i never want him to leave haha
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